finding my way back

I haven’t posted in a long time – a month.  It isn’t that I haven’t been writing.  I have: letters to my congregation, articles for newsletters, some carefully crafted emails and some slap-dash ones, progress notes at school, documentation on students, professional development plans for colleagues.  All kinds of writing, writing, writing and I’m realizing that putting myself out in words in all these ways zaps my inclination to do it here.

I’ve also become aware of the role of vulnerability in my writing.  In other years, most of my writing beyond my blog was information based – someone asking a question and me answering, or I was doing some note taking for myself or someone else, or drafting reflections that I eventually posted here.  My blog was a place for me to “show up” in a vulnerable way.

But recently, the writing I’ve been doing for my church and at work has demanded that my vulnerability  “show up” there as well – as a professional, as a member of a church community, as a person with values and principals, a caring individual with energy to lend or listen or lift up a common concern.  Tapping my inner resources for this other writing has tapped me out for my blog writing.

I just got an image of a maple syrup tap in a tree – maybe I just need to get my sap running again.

love the questions in this post by Dennis Sparks:

Say yes “to the subject that arouses a terrifying longing”

Dennis Sparks

“The lesson…then, is that if you want to win the war for attention, don’t try to say ‘no’ to the trivial distractions you find on the information smorgasbord; try to say ‘yes’ to the subject that arouses a terrifying longing, and let the terrifying longing crowd out everything else.” —David Brooks

Distraction is widely viewed as a significant problem in society and in schools. It dissipates energy at work and in our personal lives, and it is truly dangerous when we are behind the wheel of a car.

But perhaps the problem is not distraction, but rather the absence of a compelling purpose—a “…subject that arouses a terrifying longing”—as David Brooks describes it.

Cal Newport thinks about it this way:

“Distraction, from this perspective, is not the cause of problems in your work life, it’s a side effect. The real issue comes down to a question more important than whether or not you use Facebook too much: Are you striving to do something useful and do it so well that you can cannot be ignored?”

What useful thing are you striving to do that cannot be ignored?

take 5 minutes

IMG_9283  IMG_9284  IMG_9292  kiss

celebrating Zoey’s and Kaylee’s emergence into this world, Happy Birthday

when one plus one becomes more becomes we
and today’s and tomorrow’s become now become dreams

when each you and me greets each hour and each day
with love and delight to show the way

then all of our you’s and our me’s and our we’s
will become us
becoming a
true family

Blessings to Alex and Jo

odd to find trust a topic twice in two days, well maybe not really

Trust:  a firm belief in the reliability, truth, ability, or strength of someone or something.
Synonyms: confidence, belief, faith, certainty, assurance, conviction, credence, reliance
“relations have to be built on trust”
Trust – is complicated.



denim blue jeans
i can’t imagine my life without them
i can’t remember every pair of course
and it seems the ones i’m wearing are the ones i’ve had forever
but i know that isn’t true
they tear and fray and fade away
…… i never let them go willingly


true friends
i can’t imagine my life without them
i can’t remember them all of course
and it seems the ones with me now are the ones i’ve known forever
but i know that isn’t true
our lives tear and fray, memories fade away
…..i never let them go willingly

no i never let them go
their names are tucked close to my heart
like softened beach stones in the pocket
of my favorite
denim blue jeans



so what does your day look like tomorrow?

11454297503_e27946e4ff_hThis question has been a part of our evening routine for as long as I can remember.  One of us asks, both of us answer, and hopefully we know a little bit about the schedule each of us is anticipating  before we are back at the dinner table the next night.

Today, my husband asked the question first and my response was to throw my hands went up in the air in that quizzical way we all recognize. My verbal answer was, “Well it’s the first day of school and it is anybody’s guess.”

His reply, “but you’ve done this before” just made me guffaw!  Yes, but first days only come around once every 365 days.   I kind of do the same thing each year – but there’s always some new twist.  And the biggest tangle of the day is something I have no control over – the kids are brand new – to school, to me, to each other.

I start rattling all of this stuff off and my husband says, “You sound a little manic.”

A little!!

“And then,” I tell him, “I get to do the second day of school – which is another whole ball game.”


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